hopeless

28 of Jan 2009. The 2nd day of CNY. I am dam unhappy and angry with someone. I really understand one of my friend feelings, Zyro. I felt sorry to him, because last time I felt he is reacting too much when people cheat on him. Now, I finally get it, I know what is the feeling getting cheat by someone I care is.

I m totally mad at you, you don’t even care my feelings. What ever you ask me is useless. U ready have it on ur mind. You just ask me for react like you respect me. What everything I said you will not follow; you will just be what you want.

You wan to know why I am so quiet for the whole night. Yes... I am totally angry with you. I am angry of you being not respect me. Don’t think about me. And totally don care and concern about me. I just wonder you are totally changed or you react like a good person in the past.
I am unhappy with you wanted to bring me back to that restaurant. What if that ppl really shout at me? How? All the staff will keep looking at me. You don’t even care about this. What you care is u can be able to let u friend meet his lover. But do you ever thinking about me? I regaled to help your friend last night.

I feel that u is totally ignoring me. You just bring me out to not break your promises. Plus just wanted to collect what you call me to buy for you. If that case, I rather don’t want to go out with you. You are totally not sincere. You treat KIV much better than me. You bring him everywhere when he comes, from morning to night. What about me? You only take me out have dinks at those place. Nothing special, this is totally not you.
I am totally doubt did you cheat on me. But you totally don’t respect me. I am definably owns a respect. And this is what I care the most. Hopeless ….

You are totally disappointed…